Hey, finally I'm here to post something again after an inactivity for few months...
And this is how our life goes on...
The meaning of life is totally indescribable. We will never know what will happen in the very next second and future. There's one thing where LIFE will continuously force us to face obstacles, failures, setbacks, and goals challengingly.. that is what we needed to be encountered.
We may always fall on our own hands because of the painfulness, tiredness, patheticalness, stress, and so on... and lead us being incontinence psychologically and physically.
Things knocked us down, if you're willing to get up, there is nothing to knock your wills.
That is how I've been faced for the moment being inactivity in this few months.
Relationship? That everyone thought it was the most important things in life..
Just having a tragical break up since past few months, where after being for 2 years in a relationship. Maybe it's a really biggest challenges in this very moment? Can't eat, can't sleep, being emotionally upset. Thinking back of the past, a thin layer of tears from eyes fills to my heart. My only resolution it is just to being out of sight, out of mind of everything followed by without any contacts.
Days after days of me, I've joined this Bible Camp in Golden Sands, Port Dickson. This was during the November - December holiday (6D5N). In that very moment, I would always head to the sea view during evening likewise staring at the beautiful nature-like sunset.
A sunset picture captured by me around 6:30pm +/- evening.
The moment I'm looking towards the sunset, it brings me a lot of peaceful thoughts and also rewind of the past relationships. At the same time sitting on the bench provided enjoyed the fresh air, natural views, the sound of birds nearby the beach docks. Friends and elderly brothers and sisters are friendly and share the love within each other. All these advocated my emotion and brings me to smile in heart.
From that moment, I had finally let go of the past and refreshed my mind. I would always feel comfortable now.
To someone here :
" Thanks for everything from the past 2 years and now. You had not only brings me a lot of ups and downs but also taught me countless of lesson in life. On how to sacrifice for someone who'm is worthy, on how to care and love on someone that really important for us, and gave me a good stance with a good goals in my life. I will always target my goals and goes on with my precious life. Countless of sad and happy moments.. only one thing which I've done wrongly where I did not care of someone besides me and put my full priorities on you. But other than that, I will never regret of what I've done to you, because on what you and me had now, it is always priceless. And that is what you had made me more stronger. Everything is always the past, but memories stay, and that is where we treasure ourselves. Whatever things we had done to each other, I will just forget and forget with a sincere apology to you.Whether you think my words is sincere for you or not it doesn't really important to me anymore. Everything happens for a reason and takes time to see the full picture. Good Luck "
And that is what occur coincidentally. I would really thanks to the HBS who really made my day.
Another thing which is I had involved MLM which is Score A. This was happened since on the late November 2012. At the very first beginning thought, I think that it is a really good platform for me to being success (#soundswrong) but my kor really disagree of what I'm doing and I refuse to take his advice. They started to ask me date my friends out and approach them to join this. I yet listened to them and called few of my friends. Lastly they had paid and joined this. Time goes by, my downline friends had approached all their close friends including my schoolmates to join this business. Sooner, few of my friends had paid part of the exact sum without official receipt issued and things started happen. Likewise they wish to get back their refund, but the distributors disagree and declare that it's my friends fault by telling their parents. This very moment, kor scolded me badly and also question me for not being taking his advice properly. I felt bad for my friends too and I had prepared to face these circumstances. I had continuously making appointments with strangers during the whole December from morning till night just to approach those strangers to join this. My exact purpose was actually wanted to sold off my friends business account in order for them to get back the money. This had involved such a big sums fortunately in the end I had tried my very best to cover my friends amount.
It is really tough during this period by doing some stupid stuff for the whole month without any income. But after gone through these, I still manage to get a better good relationship between my friends and also learned that actually outside this society it is not what we think regarding that we didn't experience before. For who reading this, MLM is a marketing concept which using your friends for self-profit. It is a bad thing in this society. Too bad that most humans are greedy nowadays.. such a realistic society. But no matter how it made me more tougher in my personality.
It's another new year - 2013! The only thing I was worried is about having SPM this year and also which class I was streamed to. Actually I had hoped this for a long time to be streamed in the best class among the school. I remember that the moment I entered the school for the first day in this year, my heartbeats like a machine. And sooner, my friends called my name with a shock but sounds excited where I've streamed to the class that I've dreamed for. Additionally, I was selected as a Chinese Language Society President for Year 2013 and holding another major post - Treasurer for Karate Club.
To be honest, I felt grateful and able to entered the class and manage this society. But most of all, I still hope that I can do the best for this society throughout the guidance from teachers and kor in future. I felt excelled myself for this moment but no matter how I've need to strive harder continuously in present and future to build myself.
Well, my birthday had just came to the end for this year which was on January 25th... But I had a lot of good celebrations from family and friends too! The earliest celebration was with my friends and my kor along. Where my kor would be the host. We had celebrated in Sunway Lagoon at the same time with we enjoying the special discount of 20th Years Celebration of Sunway Lagoon. Unfortunately we can't get the RM 20 tickets, so we'll go for RM 50 tickets. Although sounds a little disappointed but it still cheaper than normal price almost 70%. But money is not the most important part, because we had enjoyed the fun moments among each other and that very day I felt really happy by giving me a best shot. #Thankstoallmyfriendsandkor<3
6 of us together celebrating my Pre-Birthday Celebration.
Last but not least, I wished to made myself to be more even better than what am I now. I would always made myself being healthy with a smile mentally and physically for better future! I started head off the gym this year and so yeah! Felt really nice of the pains and development. #Sorrynopictureofme
This is the current things that I've faced for in between these period, but...
I'm ready for the next one who will I encounter for!
No matter what remember to think positively, wisely, and also never give up!